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📖 Journal of DeLuna — Special Entry: What Remains When the Veil Falls

Today was supposed to feel relieving. This morning, I woke up knowing we would finally leave Yggdra soon. The Caravan Master decided we would travel east toward the nearest harbor city and return to Port Roderick by merchant vessel instead of taking the full overland route. With the caravan, the goods, and the profit from the Voidscale negotiation, sea travel would apparently save both time and cost. Yesterday, I attempted to joke with Ryn. Or at least I think that was my intention. I told her fifty percent of the Voidscale profits should belong to me since the negotiation only succeeded because of what happened to me. To my surprise, she agreed. She opened a heavy chest filled with gold bars marked by the symbol of the white fox mask. The sight alone nearly made me sick. Ryn said I could take as much as I wanted. That I deserved it. In the end, I took nothing. The mask inside my satchel already weighed enough. Even seeing the fox insignia stamped into the gold made my stom...
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📖 Journal of DeLuna — Special Entry: Daylight Repossession

This morning, Ryn came to my room unexpectedly. She asked me to accompany her to The Moonthread Bazaar. Honestly, I wanted to refuse. Even after ten days, Lunaveil still made my skin feel tight somehow. But Ryn said we only had two days left before departure, and she needed to inspect market prices before leaving the city. So eventually, with considerable reluctance, I agreed. We walked together through Lunaveil beneath drifting silk banners and pale morning mist. Every Moonfen Sister who saw me stopped briefly to bow. Some only lowered their heads slightly. Others bent deeply enough to make me uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable. Ryn clearly noticed. But she said nothing. Only continued walking beside me at a slightly slower pace than usual. The Moonthread Bazaar was as beautiful as ever. Soft fabrics. Warm lantern light. Perfume. Gentle voices. Everything still looked exactly the same. But now the beauty felt hollow somehow. Or perhaps I was the hollow one. I followed Ryn w...

📖 Journal of DeLuna — Special Entry: Sondre

Sondre came to see me this morning. Not the Caravan Master. Just Sondre. He entered quietly while I was still staring at the fox mask on the table. For a moment neither of us spoke. Then he told me something I wish he had never said. He said the mask now belongs to me. No. Worse. He said it is now part of me. I asked him what that meant. Sondre answered calmly, as if discussing weather. He said I would age far slower than ordinary humans now. He admitted he did not know how much slower. Only that it would happen. Then he added another thing. Something somehow even worse. He said with this mask in my possession, every Moonfen Sister in the world would show me respect. He spoke as though this was a blessing. A reward. Something valuable. And suddenly— Something inside me snapped. I shouted at him. Loud enough my throat still hurts now while writing this. “If this is true then what am I now?!” Before I even realized it, my hand had already grabbed the nearest object beside me....

📖 Journal of DeLuna — Special Entry: After The First Cradle

It has been almost ten days since I returned from beneath the World Tree. Ten days since I witnessed something I still cannot fully arrange into human understanding. Everything since then has felt distant. Muted. Like waking from a nightmare only to realize the nightmare left physical evidence behind. Because the white fox mask is still here. Resting on the table beside the bed. Proof. I considered throwing it away many times. Burning it. Leaving it somewhere far from me. But every time I thought about doing so, another thought followed immediately after: If I discard it… Then everything I endured beneath Yggdra becomes meaningless. And somehow that felt worse. So the mask remained. Watching silently from the table while I locked myself inside this room for ten straight days. Ryn visited every day. Usually only briefly. She brought food. Tea. Sometimes fresh clothes. She never pressured me to speak. Never forced conversation. Only asked softly if I was alright. And every da...

📖 Journal of DeLuna — Entry LVI: The First Cradle

I followed The First Veil without resistance. Not because I lacked fear. But because fear itself had somehow become distant. Everything around her felt inevitable. Before leaving the audience chamber, I glanced once toward Ryn. She gave me a small nod. Then forced a smile I immediately recognized as false. It hurt to see. A moment later she turned away and exited alongside several Moonfen Sisters. And somehow… That felt worse than if she had tried to stop this. The First Veil guided me through a descending corridor deep beneath the roots of Yggdra. The deeper we walked, the warmer the air became. Not physically warm. Alive warm. Like moving deeper into the body of something sleeping. The walls themselves seemed to pulse faintly beneath the pale light. I remember hearing distant sounds during that walk. Not voices. Something softer. Almost like breathing through wood. The First Veil spoke to me several times in Common Tongue during our descent. Her voice reminded me of my mo...

📖 Journal of DeLuna — Entry LV: Beneath Her Gaze

I will explain this as carefully as I can. Not because I wish to hide details. But because I genuinely do not know what truly happened inside that room. Even now, I am unsure where memory ends and instinct begins. Being inside the audience chamber of the Veilroot Sanctum was the strangest experience of my life. No. That sentence still feels too small. It was not simply strange. It was invasive. Not physically. Existentially. The moment The First Veil adjusted her posture slightly upon the throne of roots, my body reacted before thought could form. I lowered my head instinctively. So did the others. Not politely. Not formally. Lower. Far lower. For one horrifying second, I realized I had almost knelt completely. Almost worshipped. Ryn cleared her throat softly. The sound snapped through the room like a blade through silk. I froze. So did the others. I think we all realized at the same moment what we had almost done. Only Ryn had remained upright. Calm. Controlled. Though now...

📖 Journal of DeLuna — Entry LIV: The Veilroot Sanctum

I do not think I can write all of this in one journal entry. Even now, five days after everything that happened beneath the World Tree, my thoughts still feel… disordered. There are moments I remember too clearly. And others my mind seems unwilling to touch. Even writing this now makes my stomach twist. Perhaps that is why I should write it before memory softens it into something easier. We were brought deeper into Yggdra. Far deeper than the districts meant for travelers. The deeper we walked, the quieter the city became. Not empty. Never empty. Only restrained. As though sound itself understood where it was allowed to exist. The fog thickened around us. The buildings became larger. Older. Their elegance no longer felt welcoming. Only precise. The Moonfen Sisters guiding us spoke softly among themselves in their own language. I could not understand a single word. But I understood enough to realize it was not a language meant for outsiders. Ryn answered them fluently. That ...